so much work...:((

its' been 3 days in the office and I am being "bombarded" with work...not that I didn't like to wrk...but was just out of touch for a while....;)) I can actually feel the stress of working at the client site:( Tim asked me today if I had any grey hair...and when I denied that....he winnked and said...don't worry they'll pop up soon here!!

Life is so different here...My day starts at 6:30 and I reach office at 7:30...(something that I haven't done in YEARS)...mum...I hope you read this...you'll be the happiest to know about this!!days are really short here....they just start and end in a flick!!and suddenly you realize ....all you did in the office is "work"...."only work"....again something I was out of touch of...;) Lunch wraps up in 10 mins....unlike those elaborate meals we used to have in Mumbai...I am just getting used to it....neways, funda is simple...I have come here to work and I am doing that...In a way I am liking this routine...only that the stress levels at the workplace are too high...they are getting onto my nerves right now and I am not enjoying that at all!! :(( but no worries...this will also pass by...

After a tiring day when I get back home...I face a very blunt fact....fact that I am away from home...away from people I love...away from people who love me... (Chunnu is an exception...I just love her!!) everyone here is so busy with their ownself...their life...their stress...their worries...I don't even tslk to all the people living with me in the same house...and I am not used to that...the "personal space"given is just too much to handle....
but then even I don't have time to ponder on it...'coz I just gotto cook the dinner and goto sleep...another stressful...eventful day is waiting for me....

and yes I am listening to "yeh jo des hai tera....".....:))

aren't these lovely....

Mitti Ki Hai Jo Khushboo, Tu Kaise Bhulayega
Tu Chahe Kahin JaYeh, Tu Laut Ke Aayega
Nayee-Nayee Rahon Mein, Dabi-Dabi Aahon Mein
Khoyeh-Khoyeh Dil Se Tere Koi yeh Kahega

I have reached Chicago!

After the first day in the office, here I am sittng at home listening to "yeh jo des hai tera..."and getting nostalgic about everything....finally getting a chance to write down things...so many of them on my mind...

I reached Chicago on Saturday...all my way of that 18 hours' flight....I used to peep out of the window looking at the clouds n' pinching myself if i was dreaming...c'mon I deserve to feel this way...my first trip in the air made me feel amused!! but 18 hours were just too much at one go...it was getting onto me at the end of it....but yes I was amused....amused at the fact that an ordinary girl from a small town is experiencing this...not that its' that big a deal...but for me...yes it is...for many reasons to mention....at one corner of my heart I was crying...crying to leave the most important people of my life behind....leaving my country and goign to another place...but then again i never wanted to miss that opportunity especially when it had just come to me out of the blue!!
:))
at the end of everything all I feel is Amused!!

another big reason for me to get excited about was meeting my Chunnu!! after so long...! she had come over to pick me up....a friend's presence in a new place...a new country....means a lot!!
my weekend went great! chunnu ensured that it goes great! I started my stay in Schaumburg with the snowfall!! whtta scene mann!! all white around!!its' chilling out here... then I visited a temple...Hari Om Mandir...and it was the "Bhandara" day!! so had prasad in the mandir n' guess what ....the prasad included "COKE"....only to make me realize that I was in US's temple...!!:))

things are very different here...the way of life....the way of thinking...the behaviour...feels good to experience a new culture...something good n' something bad about it...! but the worst part is when you see people from ur land changing upside down aftr coming here....I still am unable to figure out what makes people change their self...their behaviour...their way of thoughts...is it the money, or the insecurity....or its' just another way to capture some attention....whatever it is...its' wierd....absolutely wierd...


I am still unable to figure out if I am feeling good or I am feeling sad...its' soemthing like...

"Everything around here is so fine...but then everything around here is not mine..."

no pollution, no poverty, all money, cleanliness, discipline...so many things to feel good about...but at the end of day I don't belong here...I belong to my India...my land....my country...I don't mind staying here and get a feel of things n' people...its' an experience worth cherishing about!! but at the end of day I wanna go back to India...bole to "Mera Bharat Mahan!!!"
n' yeah I am still listening to "yeh jo des hai tera..." I loved it...n' now I love it all the more...

Something...

Something I see…
Something I like…
Something I want…
Something I desire…
Something I remember…
Something I cherish...
I cry for something…
I smile for something…
I look for something…
I crave for something…
I dream for something…
I wait for something…
I am living for something…
I’ll die for something…
I wish I’ll be remembered for something…
I hope I’ll be missed for something…

I am sad...........

Abhishek got engaged to aish...
:(((((((

I am SAD...............

love ya Popat!!

Popat always cribs that I love her less and express it all the more less...(nice oxymoron isn't it!!?)…I dunno whats her measure for that…but I love her all the more for that cribbing…as for me…I am bad in expressing…so whenever popat turns to me with that puppy dog expression of not loving her…I bash her all the more!! And I enjoy that!!

I dunno why but the days spent with chunnu…popat…janu have been one of the best parts of my life…the golden days…maybe ‘coz we all were so much alike…inspite of being so different…each one with a unique temperament…a unique style…but at the end of day we were just a jing bang of four clowns…that’s what my dad used to call us…Those night long chats…the mindless comedy the four of us ended up doing…Sanu’s popats…washing clothes at 1:30 a.m., cooking food at 3:00 a.m!!! I just can’t get over it…our Happy High Family!!

Since chunnu and janu left…popat n’ I are together…fighting as always…janu n’ chunnu were so concerned about both of us together…’coz they knew how we love to fight with each other…even other people get tensed when they see both of us fighting…little do they know that’s our expression of love…!

At this juncture in life…everyone around me n’ popat are worried about our relationship except for the both of us!!! all advising us to think and behave with maturity…little do they know we two are just too good to handle these things…these tiny tweety bits of bad times here n’ there are not going to make any difference to us…popat and I gotta unique combo…she needs expressions all the time and I am too bad with it…popat cribs about me not telling her how much I love her… neither do I tell her that inspite of her cribbing!! And we love each other for that…

This writeup just for you popat…just to tell you…I love you…I love you lotsss…love your popats…ur just too good with those!!! I wish I cud catalog all those goof ups at one place…!! nothing big or small gonna make a difference in that…I’ll just be a call away..anytime and everytime…distances won’t matter to us…whoever goes…the other will just be following behind…

the combination of the four of us can never ever happen with anyone else…we are just too good together...I really wish for a time with the four clowns being together again to recreate the magic!! hope it happens soon...

pal...

Hum rahe ya na rahe kal
Kal yaad aayenge yeh pal
Pal, yeh hain pyaar ke pal
Chal, aa mere sang chal
Chal, soche kyaChhoti si hai zindagi
Kal mil jaaye to hogi khushnaseebi
Hum rahe ya na rahe,
yaad aayenge yeh pal
Shaam ka aanchal odhke aayi
Dekho voh raat suhaani
Aa likh de hum donon milke
Apni yeh prem kahaani
Hum rahe ya na rahe, yaad aayenge yeh pal
Aane waali subha jaane
Rang kya laaye deewaani
Meri chaahat ko rakh lena
Jaise koi nishaani
Hum rahe ya na rahe, yaad aayenge yeh pal
Hum rahe ya na rahe kal
Kal yaad aayenge yeh palPal,
yeh hain pyaar ke pal
Chal, aa mere sang chal
Chal, soche kya
Chhoti si hai zindagi
Kal mil jaaye to hogi khushnaseebi
Hum rahe ya na rahe, yaad aayenge yeh pal.................

I dunno what to write…how to write…too many things happening…life taking turns…making you face situations you never anticipated…bringing you so close to the harsh realities…

Motu is a dear friend…both of us have too many things in common…both of us relate to the shape “round”, both of us end up showing our batteesee (32 teeth) most of the times…both of us are BIG time foodies…just too many to mention…that’s the reason we call each other motu sisters!! The phase of your life when everything seems to just go wrong, even that phase was going parallel for us…somewhere things were taking a “slight” positive turn for me and I wished the same for motu. The sudden realization that the parallel track of two people taking different directions is not-so-pleasant…

Motu’s mom was suddenly diagnosed with a serious disease; the shock was big enuff to handle. The responsibility of taking decisions, arranging things, meeting docs, deciding hospitals is not-so-easy-a-task! I was with motu at the day of surgery, so were some other friends. Hospitals are depressing…completely depressing…but then that is the only option at times…sending your mum to the operation theater with a smile so that she gets the strength to fight-it-out, inspite of the fact that you are crying inside takes a lot of guts…I saw motu doing all that…I saw her breaking down at times but at the same time I also saw her pulling herself up and fighting it out. All I could do was to be there…with her…I could actually realize how much it means to be there when someone needs you…

The ordeal of passing each and every minute…every second till the surgery was complete had exhausted Motu and her family…emotionally, mentally, physically…her wet eyes, her fading smile…had put me to thought…presence of our parents mean so much…its’ so difficult to see them go though the pain…money becomes the necessary evil of our lives at times…friends mean so much…testing times can knock anyone’s door, anytime…!!!

When I was witnessing this whole thing…I just thought about the times I had hurt my aai baba, at times intentionally, unintentionally at other times…somewhere down it pinched my heart so much…all I can wish is not to repeat them ever again…

Motu has seen one of the hardest times of her life, and I also know that she’s strong enough to handle “everything”. I always believe that God puts testing times on the ones who can have the courage to face it, handle it. We need to take such times as an opportunity to find out the people who are actually there when we need them.

Motu, m always gonna be with you…just a call away…I love you…aunty’s gonna be fine…and as I say…achche logon ke saath achcha hi hota hai (good happens to ggod people)…waiting to see that smile and twinkle in your eyes again…!!!

no title for this...

She is standing at crossroads…confused, amused, angry, upset at the turn of events…she never wanted it this way…all she feels is helpless with the situations…how can one become so much a slave in front of situations!? Why can’t good happen to everyone!? Why can’t things go right with everyone!?

But then that’s the way it is…one just falls a prey to circumstances…that one had never thought of…never anticipated…and beauty is in the way one comes out of it…dealing it…facing it…and winning over it…!!

Gone...

There he comes…
And stands in front of her…
They meet…
They talk…
And she falls in love…
He goes back…
She waits for him to come…
And take her away…
She waits…
and she waits….
But he never comes back…
He was gone…with his love…
All she feels now is amused!
Why can’t she be like her…
Why couldn’t he love her…
But then not all questions have answers…
Like all deserts don’t have showers…
All she feels now is amused…

you can only if you want to...

What am I doing with what I have…!?
Its’ ironical when I see people who have less n’ who do much more…

Only this thought bugged me when I met this chap called Charudutta Jadhav. Let me tell you he’s a programming geek, an expert of C, C++, VC++, Java, ORACLE, VB, .NET…and he’s visually challenged!! I had gone to meet him with a couple of friends so that he and his employer can meet the management of our company, talk to them and remove their apprehensions regarding recruitment of differently able people…!! During the meeting all that I learnt was how optimistic a person can be…this guy worked in a bank for 12 years! He gave exams for promotion every year but was rejected ‘coz of his disability inspite of his clearing exams each time…he finally resigned and happened to get a chance in this company called GTL whose VP believed in him and gave him a chance…inspite of holding a Masters in Economics, Charudutta had tried his hands on coding out of mere curiosity and interest…and that’s the reason he has gained such expertise on so many technologies in a span of six years…!!!

He’s working as a Project Manager of the RnD dept. of his company…and to add another feather in his cap, he used his knowledge of chess (he’s playing chess for the past 22 years and is a national Champ) and expertise in coding, and developed a CHESS game at par with the World’s best chess game with special features or the visually challenged and launched it with the minimum possible price so that people can afford it!! He gave a demo of this game and all I can say is FANTABULOUS!!!!

His aim is to develop utilities for visually challenged people which are affordable and can be used by them easily. Currently he’s working on a project to develop a counterpart of JAWS (in short, JAWS is the s/w through which visually challenged people can use computers independently) called Screen Reader that he’ll be launching at almost 1/10th price of that of JAWS.

Happened to write all this ‘coz I just received the news that Charu Datta Jadhav is getting the Best Employee of the Year Award by the honorable President of India on 4th December!! I was so happy after getting this news and wanted to share it to as many people as possible…so thought of putting it up over here…

Each one of us is gifted with some trait or the other to serve the world in our own way…we just need to find it and use it…guys like Charudutta are exceptions but they make you believe that challenges can always be triumphed…however big they are…

Strong Enough...

I don't listen to Sheryl Crowe usually...happened to hear this song today...just loved it...

Strong Enough….

God, I feel like hell tonight
Tears of rage I cannot fight
I’d be the last to help you understand
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Nothing’s true and nothing’s right
So let me be alone tonight
Cause you can’t change the way I am
Are you strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

I have a face I cannot show
I make the rules up as I go
It’s try and love me if you can
Are you strong enough to be my man?

When I’ve shown you that I just don’t care
When I’m throwing punches in the air
When I’m broken down and I can’t stand
Will you be strong enough to be my man?

Lie to me
I promise I’ll believe
Lie to me
But please don’t leave

hearts...

I wrote his name on the sand…
the waves came and washed it away…
I wrote it again with my hand…
But it wasn’t there to stay…
Why can’t the hearts be just like sand…
Where you write names and the waves just wash them away…
But then its’ only hearts that can love…
Let the heart love, lose and love again…
‘coz it likes to take the pain…pain of losing…
And only the heart can find it back again…all over again…

check this out!!!

found it on my friend’s blog, interesting huh?!!

Bold the ones you did.* the ones you really wanna do. Easy ...na!
(How about more stars, the more i wanna do those!!)

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid*
06. Held a tarantula – Naah!!
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped*
11. Visited Paris*
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise…So many times!!
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa **
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby's diaper
21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon
22. Watched a meteor shower *
23. Gotten drunk on champagne ***
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope ---the Saturn Ring n’
moon look beautiful…simply beautiful…
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse
29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment---that was more than a moment…
39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 10 provinces
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Have amazing friends---they all are simply superb!! You ROCK guys!!
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk on the beach***
50. Gone sky diving **
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your cds
57. Pretended to be a superhero ( not exactly, but my bro n’ I used to play Vikram-Betal when we were kids!!! Hehehehheeeee)
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving *
62. Kissed in the rain *
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China **
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken---waiting for it to happen…
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married * not yet…
73. Been in a movie---a 15 minutes TCS movie!! Heheheheeee
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced - See point 72
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest
79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River-----eeekssssss!!!
82. Been on television news programs as an "expert"** sochne mein kya hai! (Whats the harm to think about it!?)
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas ***86. Recorded music
87. Eaten shark
88. Had a one-night stand
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house***
91. Been in a combat zone
92. Buried one of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship ***
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror.
96. Raised children ***
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
98. Created and named your own constellation of stars
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country**
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge***
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an illness that you couldn't have survived
105. Wrote article for a large publication**
106. Lost over 100 pounds – wish that to happen soon!!! 100 se kam chalega ;)
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback *
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone's heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol*
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon**
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents*****
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach----EEEEEKS they are SO SO YUCKCKCKYYY!!
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one "important" author who you missed in school, and read ...
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair
146. Dyed your hair--- had got ‘em highlighted…!
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone's life***********************************

Umrao Jaan....naah....Abhishek Bachchan!!!

After bidding good bye to Ujjwala…on Sunday morning…(yet another one to leave…I have become used to it now…don’t feel THAT bad as I used to before…) I sat down and talked to Anjali for sometime coming to terms with realities of life that most of the people come in your life to go away….for some reason talking to Anjali soothes me down…she is one person I have met who’s so true in telling you things, not bothering whether you actually like it or not…a person who has seen life and learnt from it…a person who has managed to save herself from changing for all wrong reasons and managed it pretty well…most of us might get weak and succumb to situations, people, ambitions, priorities…Anjali Tai (that’s what I call her) is one person who makes you believe what is “Right”…

Enough of serious stuff…Anjali Tai and I went to watch Umrao Jaan yesterday evening…let me correct..I went to watch Abhishek Bachchan…and Tai went to watch Abhishek Bachchan and the movie…!! If someone asks me howazz the movie…I ain’t know…I gotto literally scratch my head and try to remember the movie…because I had gone to watch Abhishek Bachchan…and I did that!!! How can one be SO hot!! ;) the best part about Abhishek Bachchan is his “eyes”….GAWD what eyes mann!! And he’s best when he acts with his eyes…I loved him in Sarkaar too for the same reason….as for Umrao Jaan, the movie…it was strictly OK…and that too because it had Abhishek Bachchan…I liked the old one more…you can’t actually stop yourself from comparisons…

So all Abhishek’s fans…you gotto watch Umrao Jaan only to see “How Abhishek Bachchan sees….!”

Laugh it out!!!

these jokes might be old...but they are SO funny!!
at least I found them funny!!!

heheheheheeeeeee
:)))))))))))))))))))))))


Q: How do you shoot a blue elephant?
A: With a blue elephant gun, of course.

Q: How do you shoot a red elephant?
A: No, not with a red elephant gun. You strangle him until he turns blue, then shoot him with a blue elephant gun.

Q: How do you shoot a green elephant?
A: Tell him a dirty joke so he turns red, strangle him until he turns blue, then shoot him with a blue elephant gun.

Q: How do you shoot a pink elephant?
A: First you bake a cake, and put 3 raisins on top, then you take it out in the jungle where the pink elephant will find it, and you wait. Eventually the elephant comes along, finds the cake, eats the raisins and throws the cake away. Then you go home and bake another cake and put 2 raisins on top, take it out in the jungle where the elephant will find it. The elephant comes along, finds the cake, eats the 2 raisins and throws the cake away. You go home and bake another cake and put only one raisin on it. Then you trek back into the jungle and put the cake where the pink elephant will find it. The elephant comes along eats the raisin, and throws that cake away. Now you go home and bake another cake, but (here's the sneaky part) you don't put any raisins on it.You take it out into the jungle where the elephant will find it and lie in wait. The pink elephant comes along and finds the cake, he gets so mad that there aren't any raisins on it, he turns red, then you jump on him, strangle him until he turns blue......and you shoot him with a BLUE ELEPHANT GUN!!!

Q: How do you shoot a yellow elephant?
A: Aaawwwhhhh, come on, have you ever seen a yellow elephant !?!
Q: Why is an elephant big, grey, and wrinkly?
A: Because, if it was small, white and smooth it would be an Aspirin.
Q: Why do elephants have red eyes?
A: So they can hide themselves better in cherry trees.

Q: Ever seen an elephant in a cherry tree?
A: No? See how well the trick with the red eyes works?

endless race...

Its’ been quite sometime coming to the workplace has become an ordeal for me…I am finding myself void of opportunities to learn and grow…that’s what I think…each day I come here, talk to the people up in the hierarchy about my concerns. The best part is all of them have time to listen to me and a decent understanding about my concerns but the worst part is nothing is being done about it.

Yesterday I happened to talk to one of my close friends. She is flying onsite next month, and I am really happy for her! She was struggling for it for the past 5-6 months…but there was something in our conversation that hit me real hard…suddenly she broke down and told me about her fear of going away from her family, her boyfriend, her friends…she was afraid of losing it all….it struck me so hard that what are we running after!!? I was forced to think why I get upset after coming to the office? Why I am complaining about the people around for not doing anything? What is it exactly that I want people to do? Aren’t we just running an endless race…running after something which even we don’t know…running just for the sake of it….

Isn’t it all about priorities!? One can’t get everything at the same time…he has to chose one from many…once that’s achieved…he runs after the other….and it goes on and on and on…I just thought about the many people I know and was amused that each one of them is after something…one wants a better job with a bigger salary…another wants a change in job but can’t get one…reason being his current package is SO huge that the other companies can’t afford him!! One is in the USA but feels sad being away from home and friends….another going to USA after a long struggle but now apprehensive about going there…still another who’s not even sure if at all she wants to leave her country…one tensed about not getting married…another crying for getting married so early that she couldn’t “enjoy” her life….one cribbing about not having a boyfriend…another tensed about the future with his girlfriend….the list is endless….

At the end of these string of thoughts all I am left with is “amusement”….life is so simple and we make it so complicated…. those 10 bucks as pocket money seemed so big an amount when we were kids…and today after earning thousands of rupees…what we crave for is MORE!! Prioritizing is necessary most of the times…but then a line needs to be drawn somewhere….or else we’ll keep on running after the unknown and the next second…life is gone…over….!

Life’s not just about running…craving for more….its’ also about being happy for what we have…stopping and enjoying the moments…making memories for us and for others…trying to be there for the people we love and care…may each one of us achieve what we want and feel content and happy about it….Amen...

Just like that!!

Yesterday I didn’t come to the office…reason…”just didn’t FEEL like”….and I was so happy doing it….sometimes its’ necessary to do certain things just because you “just” feel like doing them…without thinking about the WHYs, WHATs, WHENs and HOWs!!! It was high time I did something just like that!! And it felt GR8…u bet!!! I was remembering one of my friends’ who used to come up with a “surprising WHY” whenever I did something out of the blue…and ended up being amused at my answer…”mann kiya to kar diya!!” (felt like doing so did”)….
I was zapping channels yesterday when came across some documentary on “giving your brain some rest through meditation”…and all I ended up was “wondering”!! is it actually possible to void your brain from all the thoughts at an instance…I mean its’ hard to think about a case when your brain isn’t thinking about “anything”!! I can never relate to this concept…some stuff ought to go in your mind whatever crap it may be…shifting your thoughts from one topic to another…accepted….but making your mind empty of thoughts…naaaah!!! One of my friend’s used to always wonder as to “how much I can think!!” but it isn’t that hard for me:) maybe he can find it easier to void his mind of thoughts…as for me…I’ll try someday…but it sounds so boring to “not” think about “anything”…!!

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Life’s going on a boring monotonous track…same office…same boring, frustrated faces, same dirty politics, people pulling your leg to go ahead…I am actually bored of this!!!

But the weekend bought in some change…went to the blind school on Saturday…had good time over there…I dunno why but that place makes me feel so good…it makes me forget all the negative things happening around…I was there for some 4-5 hours…Sunday I caught with my friends at Avi’s place…Vamsi had come over to Mumbai to meet his girlfriend;) his sense of imagination achieves new heights whenever he has to come up with a reason to tell his parents about coming to Mumbai!!!

Sunday evening was good fun!! Avi, Sonal, Mahan, Aarti, Vamsi, Vrushali and Surya…and some more friends of Avi…missed JD and Sheenu so much! Its always so good to catch up with ur old pals…on my way back I thought of the time I used to hang out with these chaps…never did I even think of a possibility that things will change…even I get surprised for not thinking about something that was so obvious…Surya moved out…Mahan and Avi got married…Sheenu went onsite…Vamsi found a girlfriend…!!! Things changed…and I feel pleasantly surprised about it…’coz things happen for good and change for better…Its’ all about feeling good to have such wonderful people as your friends…having a good time with them and be happy about it…


Yesterday was 4th October…its’ been an year Palak passed away…time slips out like sand from your hands…death is one thing I am very scared of!! The very thought of losing out a person once n’ for all…ain’t that disturbing…Palak was a close friend and his girlfriend is still closer to me…I was with her when this happened…everything seemed to be so disturbing and depressing…but then nothing stops…life moves on…and that’s the whole beauty of it…one thing that I’ve come to realize is everything “can” move on…only if you want to…you lose a reason to live, to smile, to be happy…you’ll find another one!! Hats off to that girl who has taken life in its’ stride, faced it with a smile and gathered strength enough to move ahead…I wish the best for her in the years to come…I wish she finds someone who’ll love her equally as Palak if not more than him…Amen!!!

The Most Beautiful Flower

One of my friends had sent this across....its' beautiful....


The park bench was deserted
as I sat down to read,
Beneath the long, straggly branches
of an old willow tree.
Disillusioned by life with good reason to frown,
For the world was intent
on dragging me down.
And if that weren't enough to ruin my day,
A young boy out of breath approached me,
all tired from play.
He stood right before me
with his head tilted down,
And said with great excitement,
"Look what I found!"
In his hand was a flower,
and what a pitiful sight,
With its petals all worn down
not enough rain, or too little light,
Wanting him to take his dead flower
and go off to play,
I faked a smile and then shifted away.
But instead of retreating
he sat next to my side,
And placed the flower to his nose and declared
with overacted surprise,
"It smells pretty and it's beautiful too.
That's why I picked it; here it's for you!"
The weed before me was dying or dead.
Not vibrant of colours, orange, yellow or red.
But I knew I must take it,
or he might never leave.
So I reached for the flower and replied,
"Just what I need."
But instead of him placing the flower
in my hand,
He held it mid-air without reason or plan.
It was then that I noticed
for the very first time,
That the weed-toting boy could not see,
he was blind.
I heard my voice quiver,
tears shone like the sun,
As I thanked him for picking
the very best one.
"You're welcome" he smiled
and then ran off to play,
Unaware of the impact he's had on my day.
I sat there and wondered
how he managed to see,
A self-pitying woman
beneath an old willow tree.
How did he know about
my self-indulged plight?
Perhaps from his heart, he'd been
blessed with true sight.
Through the eyes of a blind child,
at last I could see,
The problem was not with the world;
the problem was me.
And for all of those times
I myself had been blind,
I vowed to see the beauty in life,
and appreciate every second that's mine.
And then I held that wilted flower
up to my nose and breathed in the fragrance
of a beautiful rose.
And I smiled as I watched that young boy,
another weed in his hand,
About to change the life
of an unsuspecting old man.

Munnabhai!!

Watched Munnabhai, lage raho last week…its’ an awesome movie!! Nothing else to say for it…I appreciate the ease with which the Director who picked up only the positive universal principles of Gandhiji and conveyed it so beautifully…I am not a “typical pro-Gandhi” but I simply loved it!!! A really well made movie!!!

These lines in the movie are so true…they compel you to think about it…but nothing else…we think..and think…and leave it….

Shaher ki es daud me daud ke karna kya hai?
Jab yehi jeena hai dosto to phir marna kya hai?
Paheli barish me train late hone ki fikr hai
Bhul gaye bhigte hue tahelna kya hai?
Serials ke kirdaaro ka saara haal hai malum
par maa ka haal puchhne ki fursat kise hai?
Ab ret pe nage pao tahelte kyu nahi?
108 hai chanel phir dil bahelte kyu nahi?
Internet ki duniya ke to touch me hai,
lekin pados me kon raheta hai jaante tak nahi.
Mobile, Landline sab ki bharmaar hai,
Lekin jigri dost tak pahuche aise taar kaha hai?
Kab dubte hue suraj ko dekha tha yaad hai?
Kab jaana tha shaam ka woh banana kya hai?
To Dosto Shaher ki es daud me daud ke karna kya hai
Jab yahi jeena hai to phir Marna kya hai?