after a long break...

its' been ages I sat down and given myself some time ...there have been so many thoughts and experiences that have been wandering in my mind...waiting to come out...and now that I have actually thought to take them out...I feel stuck...I feel lost...I dunno how to put them down....the experiences are so many and so different...that made me feel happy, sad, nostalgic, depressed, excited, serious, funny... exeriences which made me realize how varied are the thoughts, concepts and expectations of people on things...Friendship...its' a big word...ask me...and I'll define it as the ability to share Silence...to understand the silence...another person I know happened to expects everything to be spoken explicitly in friendship...each and every thought...and then I sit down and wonder...does everything actually needs to be spoken out to be expressed?? I can never relate to that...maybe that's one of the reasons I am misunderstood many a times...but then yes, there are times when you actually need to speak out things...else it haunts you all your life...

I have been going around and watching places...places that were beautiful and new....that made me feel excited, and wonder about the beauty on earth...about the several destinations that I still haven't reached...the variety of places just keeps on increasing...from the natural beauty of tulips in Holland to the amazing work of architecture and imagination in St. Louis when I stood in front of the Arch...still going further to the hidden beauty of stalactites and stalagmites in the Meramac Caverns...something that I had just read in books...but then in all the variety of these places...I felt something thats so much universal...the people and their emotions....while I was sitting in one of the restaurants having my breakfast...I saw a couple in their seventies who seemed to have come for a vacation...and only then I realized that human emotions are just beyond the boundaries of nations, cultures, languages, age...two people who have spent a large part of their lives together will love each other immensely and selflessly no matter where they live, what language they speak or how they look...and after watching that cute old couple somewhere inside me I wanted to meet my better half....soon....:)

Time at the workplace just flies off...work keeps me busy all the time...good in a way...I don't have the time to miss home, family, friends...people at the workplace are a variety in themselves...from really soft spoken lot, to the ones full of life...always ready to help...to the typical managers who are all concerned about nothing else but their work been done...I've had my share of experiences with all these varieties of people...and then I witnessed something that I knew only theoretically...I had only read about people being laid off from their jobs until I actually saw this happening at my workplace where people were called in and told they need not come to the office from the next day...!! and people took it in their stride after feeling a bit disappointed...almost all my managers and colleagues here are pretty older to me and they take me as a kid many times! After this layoff thing happening...one of them managed to crack a joke on this drama...leaving me absolutely blank for a reaction...after watching me for a second, he simply smiled, patted my back and said, "You have just started your career...I have seen this many times in the 30 years of my career...So don't feel bad...this is the way things happen..."

Its’ high time people around me…especially elders think that I should get married…J and even people of my age have been seriously thinking about settling down in life…not that I am not thinking about it, but there’s something different in the way I think that’s not so usual like my other friends…I am watching people talking to 2-3 even 4-5 guys and doing a parallel analysis as to which one is the closest to their idea of groom!! No offence attached, but I don’t understand how can one talk to 4-5 guys and take a decision! I don’t know maybe if things don’t go right, even I might end up doing something similar…but u bet…I can never handle that parallel analysis thing! Thanks to mum n’ dad who are supporting enough for not asking me do something like this…I believe that things just click when they are destines too…sounds filmi…no it doesn’t to me…I need to feel the click to take a decision…and defining that click is beyond my scope!! hope it happens soon…again…