its' rakhi today....

its' Rakhi today....

missing you Bhai...:((

I was in Chicago downtown the day before...just spending some time there before I leave this place...Chicago downtown is few of the better downtowns I have seem so far...I like being there...m gonna miss this place....I was just roaming around the place and saw Barnes and Noble...cudn't stop myself from getting inside the shop...and there I went in...and behaved like an uncontrollable moron! I do that every time I see books all around me...Schaumburg Library is another place that handles my hyper behaviour! :) I just kept on picking books one from each aisle I walked through...only after I had some 10-12 odd books with me, I realized that I won't be able to buy all of those...and somewhere the child inside me got really sad:( I placed all the books back to their places with a heavy heart...and picked ONLY ONE book to take with me...the book's "Send in the Idiots" by Kamran Nazeer...I had to read this one since a long time...I came out of BArnes n' Noble smiling having done something good for the day...and went ahead to do something better...I walked a couple of blocks and placed myself comfortably in Starbucks on a couch (near the window) with my Cappucino (with Hazelnut, Grande') and a big piece of blueberry coffee cake and enjoying my book! GAWD I enjoyed the whole thing just as a kid enjoys his icecream (one in each hand)!! It was something I hadn't done for quite sometime....nothing would have made me feel better....u bet! BAck in Mumbai, I used to often goto CCD at Bandra and enjoy my coffee, my book and the sea in the front...this is one the best ways I spent time alone...and I love doing it...As for the book...its' a real good one...do read it when u get time...I just came upstairs after reading near a small lake near my apartment...thats another of my favourite places to read a book...I am done halfway...just waiting for this song to complete before I get back to my book....do listen to "maula mere le le meri jaan" from Chak de India...its' a very soothing song...at least makes me feel at peace....

marriage....aah!

the most complex thing is this world are human beings!! and they have this inherent ability to further complicate their lives....I watch people struggling with themselves...for doing something they don't want to...then thinking that maybe they want to...then battling to find out what do they exactly want...whether they are actually moving towards their happiness or moving away from it....everyone around me is getting married or at least moving towards getting married....some because they have finally found the right person...and others because they have to...or they should....and then I am being asked why I am not thinking about it...I end up giving a simple one line reply..."simply because I don't feel like." and I end up showing attitude...funny...ain't it...!?!? isn't it a very simple thing to understand that I simply don't feel like getting married right now...'coz I haven't found the right person...the day I'll find the right person, it won't even take a moment for me to take this decision...right now for the world that seems to be the "ultimate" thing I need to do!! :)) So for all the people around who are worried for my marriage....don't worry...I'll get married...and you guys won't even realize when that happens....:))

Hey, time won't wait... Life goes by... Every day's a brand new sky... Every tear comes to dry... by Rebecca Lynn Howard and Jim Brickman

Its’ 4 in the morning and I am wide awake…there was thunder n’ lightening outside and I got up to check …cudnt get to sleep after that...too many thoughts inside this pit we call mind…I think of a situation when I am not thinking about anything…absolutely nothing at all…and guess what!? I end up thinking how weird this thought is!!

I catch hold of Chunnu’s laptop and start playing around with the keys…I need get one now…its’ been quite sometime that I was without a laptop…gotta used to it badly…habits are bad…I hate ‘em!! For the time being when I didn’t have that easy an access to the laptop, I had got back to my old way of scribbling…in its’ literal sense…I was with my diary and pen…feels good for a change…kinda reliving some old days…I scribbled some stuff about my NY and Vegas trip in the diary…maybe someday I’ll put that on the blog…but I am really not sure when…

Life has been taking its’ twists n’ turns…things happening, people coming and going…old friends meeting n’ departing…new friends in the making…earlier I used to wonder about this whole thing…but only now after all these years…after making friends, parting ways, meeting again and making new ones…I have accepted this as a way of life…and I get amused by the number of friends I have made in this journey…

My current assignment got over last week…waiting for the next one…I miss going to that office…as for the work, its’ gonna be there, at some place or the other…its’ only the people that make the difference…we get so greedy for friends and relationships…all we want is more…Pooja left for India last week…all for good…though I have accepted the fact that parting ways is just a part of life…I still have a strong dislike towards that thought though…I hate bidding goodbyes to people…Palak was the first one I had bid goodbye to when he left for his college after school...I happen to remember him for some reason or the other...23rd july was his b'day...I miss wishing him...I chose to forget the fact he is no more...ahem ahem back on the track....this mind is an abyss for thoughts...i get lost at times...so back to bidding good byes and parting ways...i realize that somewhere I have changed…I have grown up…after coming here, Chunnu always blames me for becoming more of “less emotional” types, a major reason being that I accept the things that happen around in a very matter-of-fact way…I have kinda stopped trying to change people or to be more precise, stopped expecting anything at all from people around…so things don’t bother me now…not that I have become less thoughtful or less emotional; only that this way keeps me happy n’ cool…its’ very difficult to accept the fact your good friends will be moving away with time…though they’ll still be around…but the boundaries of that “being around” will keep expanding with each passing day…that priorities will change in life…that something “more important” will be there in your friends’ lives…the sooner you accept this fact…the better it becomes…maybe now I have completely accepted this fact, Chunnu thinks me of a less emotionl, less thoughtful kinds…but I don’t blame her for that…she ought to think this way…’coz she hasn’t seen me detaching from things and people around so easily before…:) as for my friends…I love them all…I miss them all… and I’ll be there for them always… until something more important comes up…!! As of now…you guys be happy to have me around…that “more important” is still to come…;) and whenever you feel down…just watch a couple of episodes of F.R.I.E.N.D.S.!! nothing can beat it! And it works all the time!! I can bet on that!! And you know what!?!? I love Chandler!!! He rocks!

As of now, I am so tempted to wake up everyone…(the wicked ritu in action) ….i hope it doesn’t rain that hard…we are planning to go to the temple today (the spiritual ritu will be in action!!)hehehheheee