Its’ been quite sometime coming to the workplace has become an ordeal for me…I am finding myself void of opportunities to learn and grow…that’s what I think…each day I come here, talk to the people up in the hierarchy about my concerns. The best part is all of them have time to listen to me and a decent understanding about my concerns but the worst part is nothing is being done about it.
Yesterday I happened to talk to one of my close friends. She is flying onsite next month, and I am really happy for her! She was struggling for it for the past 5-6 months…but there was something in our conversation that hit me real hard…suddenly she broke down and told me about her fear of going away from her family, her boyfriend, her friends…she was afraid of losing it all….it struck me so hard that what are we running after!!? I was forced to think why I get upset after coming to the office? Why I am complaining about the people around for not doing anything? What is it exactly that I want people to do? Aren’t we just running an endless race…running after something which even we don’t know…running just for the sake of it….
Isn’t it all about priorities!? One can’t get everything at the same time…he has to chose one from many…once that’s achieved…he runs after the other….and it goes on and on and on…I just thought about the many people I know and was amused that each one of them is after something…one wants a better job with a bigger salary…another wants a change in job but can’t get one…reason being his current package is SO huge that the other companies can’t afford him!! One is in the USA but feels sad being away from home and friends….another going to USA after a long struggle but now apprehensive about going there…still another who’s not even sure if at all she wants to leave her country…one tensed about not getting married…another crying for getting married so early that she couldn’t “enjoy” her life….one cribbing about not having a boyfriend…another tensed about the future with his girlfriend….the list is endless….
At the end of these string of thoughts all I am left with is “amusement”….life is so simple and we make it so complicated…. those 10 bucks as pocket money seemed so big an amount when we were kids…and today after earning thousands of rupees…what we crave for is MORE!! Prioritizing is necessary most of the times…but then a line needs to be drawn somewhere….or else we’ll keep on running after the unknown and the next second…life is gone…over….!
Life’s not just about running…craving for more….its’ also about being happy for what we have…stopping and enjoying the moments…making memories for us and for others…trying to be there for the people we love and care…may each one of us achieve what we want and feel content and happy about it….Amen...
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Just like that!!
Yesterday I didn’t come to the office…reason…”just didn’t FEEL like”….and I was so happy doing it….sometimes its’ necessary to do certain things just because you “just” feel like doing them…without thinking about the WHYs, WHATs, WHENs and HOWs!!! It was high time I did something just like that!! And it felt GR8…u bet!!! I was remembering one of my friends’ who used to come up with a “surprising WHY” whenever I did something out of the blue…and ended up being amused at my answer…”mann kiya to kar diya!!” (felt like doing so did”)….
I was zapping channels yesterday when came across some documentary on “giving your brain some rest through meditation”…and all I ended up was “wondering”!! is it actually possible to void your brain from all the thoughts at an instance…I mean its’ hard to think about a case when your brain isn’t thinking about “anything”!! I can never relate to this concept…some stuff ought to go in your mind whatever crap it may be…shifting your thoughts from one topic to another…accepted….but making your mind empty of thoughts…naaaah!!! One of my friend’s used to always wonder as to “how much I can think!!” but it isn’t that hard for me:) maybe he can find it easier to void his mind of thoughts…as for me…I’ll try someday…but it sounds so boring to “not” think about “anything”…!!
I was zapping channels yesterday when came across some documentary on “giving your brain some rest through meditation”…and all I ended up was “wondering”!! is it actually possible to void your brain from all the thoughts at an instance…I mean its’ hard to think about a case when your brain isn’t thinking about “anything”!! I can never relate to this concept…some stuff ought to go in your mind whatever crap it may be…shifting your thoughts from one topic to another…accepted….but making your mind empty of thoughts…naaaah!!! One of my friend’s used to always wonder as to “how much I can think!!” but it isn’t that hard for me:) maybe he can find it easier to void his mind of thoughts…as for me…I’ll try someday…but it sounds so boring to “not” think about “anything”…!!
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
unable to come up with a title...
Life’s going on a boring monotonous track…same office…same boring, frustrated faces, same dirty politics, people pulling your leg to go ahead…I am actually bored of this!!!
But the weekend bought in some change…went to the blind school on Saturday…had good time over there…I dunno why but that place makes me feel so good…it makes me forget all the negative things happening around…I was there for some 4-5 hours…Sunday I caught with my friends at Avi’s place…Vamsi had come over to Mumbai to meet his girlfriend;) his sense of imagination achieves new heights whenever he has to come up with a reason to tell his parents about coming to Mumbai!!!
Sunday evening was good fun!! Avi, Sonal, Mahan, Aarti, Vamsi, Vrushali and Surya…and some more friends of Avi…missed JD and Sheenu so much! Its always so good to catch up with ur old pals…on my way back I thought of the time I used to hang out with these chaps…never did I even think of a possibility that things will change…even I get surprised for not thinking about something that was so obvious…Surya moved out…Mahan and Avi got married…Sheenu went onsite…Vamsi found a girlfriend…!!! Things changed…and I feel pleasantly surprised about it…’coz things happen for good and change for better…Its’ all about feeling good to have such wonderful people as your friends…having a good time with them and be happy about it…
Yesterday was 4th October…its’ been an year Palak passed away…time slips out like sand from your hands…death is one thing I am very scared of!! The very thought of losing out a person once n’ for all…ain’t that disturbing…Palak was a close friend and his girlfriend is still closer to me…I was with her when this happened…everything seemed to be so disturbing and depressing…but then nothing stops…life moves on…and that’s the whole beauty of it…one thing that I’ve come to realize is everything “can” move on…only if you want to…you lose a reason to live, to smile, to be happy…you’ll find another one!! Hats off to that girl who has taken life in its’ stride, faced it with a smile and gathered strength enough to move ahead…I wish the best for her in the years to come…I wish she finds someone who’ll love her equally as Palak if not more than him…Amen!!!
But the weekend bought in some change…went to the blind school on Saturday…had good time over there…I dunno why but that place makes me feel so good…it makes me forget all the negative things happening around…I was there for some 4-5 hours…Sunday I caught with my friends at Avi’s place…Vamsi had come over to Mumbai to meet his girlfriend;) his sense of imagination achieves new heights whenever he has to come up with a reason to tell his parents about coming to Mumbai!!!
Sunday evening was good fun!! Avi, Sonal, Mahan, Aarti, Vamsi, Vrushali and Surya…and some more friends of Avi…missed JD and Sheenu so much! Its always so good to catch up with ur old pals…on my way back I thought of the time I used to hang out with these chaps…never did I even think of a possibility that things will change…even I get surprised for not thinking about something that was so obvious…Surya moved out…Mahan and Avi got married…Sheenu went onsite…Vamsi found a girlfriend…!!! Things changed…and I feel pleasantly surprised about it…’coz things happen for good and change for better…Its’ all about feeling good to have such wonderful people as your friends…having a good time with them and be happy about it…
Yesterday was 4th October…its’ been an year Palak passed away…time slips out like sand from your hands…death is one thing I am very scared of!! The very thought of losing out a person once n’ for all…ain’t that disturbing…Palak was a close friend and his girlfriend is still closer to me…I was with her when this happened…everything seemed to be so disturbing and depressing…but then nothing stops…life moves on…and that’s the whole beauty of it…one thing that I’ve come to realize is everything “can” move on…only if you want to…you lose a reason to live, to smile, to be happy…you’ll find another one!! Hats off to that girl who has taken life in its’ stride, faced it with a smile and gathered strength enough to move ahead…I wish the best for her in the years to come…I wish she finds someone who’ll love her equally as Palak if not more than him…Amen!!!
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